No rest for the weary

Didn't get a post out Monday or Tuesday - how is Wednesday for ya? Monday was a good day, D2 and D3 are home from vacation and resting up - traveling is hard work you know! Anyways, Monday night on our way home from my in-laws I started to have a sharp pain under my right rib cage. Hurt badly to breathe or twist in any way. Laid down for a while and it felt slightly better. Slept off and on that night and pain was still there. Had an appointment with Doc. yesterday and she thinks I have strained a muscle between two ribs. She gave me a muscle relaxer to take at night and Ibuprofen to take during the day. Ugh! No working out for me for a while because I want this to heal quickly! It not a constant pain but boy when it catches me it can take my breath away (which of course hurts more because you breathe deeply and quickly!). Said if it's not a lot better by Thursday to call back in. She did do some bloodwork to check for any abnormalities just in case that isn't it. We'll see and hopefully I'll be back to 100% soon.

Took D2 and D3 to register for school yesterday. D3 is now a 5th grader and in our District that means she goes to Middle school. So off we went, they got their lockers, schedules, pictures and all that jazz and were both really excited. I was doing pretty well, I just can't believe that they are already both out of elementary school.

D3 will celebrate her 10th birthday tomorrow - wow - that is a big one (her first "double digit" day as she would say). We are celebrating with family and she will wait until after school starts to have her friend party. She likes to do that and see who is in her class and stuff before having the party. Besides that most of her friends are having last minute vacations and can't come anyways during this time of the year.

I've been struggling with emotions lately and am trying to find the root of my problem. I ran out of my "happy" meds as I would call them and didn't get a refill until just yesterday. My fault but nonetheless doesn't help matters there. FWIW, they just level out my emotions some and I've tried to give them the ole kick in the bucket but life is so much nicer with them so I continue. So they are back on board now and hopefully things will smooth out a bit. Kiddos have been tough for me lately and I probably haven't said the best things in times of stress either. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to their respective ages though and remember how I treated my parents. Was I this bad or oblivious? It seems most of my time is spent making sure someone got the things done they needed to and/or getting things done myself so we are ready for whatever. There have been many discussions lately about what is fair, just and honest. I just want them to get their stuff done and quit whining. Is that too much to ask? I hate being the bad guy and I've been having to play that role (or so it seems) more than I should have to. I also have been fighting the "wicked stepmother" role (my terms not anyone elses). I grew up in a step parent family (my father passed away when I was 12) and I know whenever Mom didn't let me do something I thought she would I always blamed it on stepdad. Looking back and now living in a similar situation I realize this probably wasn't the case at all but I think as a child you always feel your parent is invincible and the nicest (or I did). I don't want to be the one blamed for decisions that GG and I make in the care and upbringing of D1 but maybe that just comes with the territory? Any thoughts on that especially from those in similar situations? I'm learning but wow this is harder than I thought it would be.

Well I better close for now with blessings for my days....I am blessed with the love and support of my friends. They listen when I need an ear, have a hug ready when needed and otherwise just care. Thanks girlies!